Eleven: It's scary being an adult.

When I was a child, I used to jump off swings with my friends to see who could jump off the farthest. Now I'm scared of scraping a knee against the tree.

“Too many people grow up. That's the real trouble with the world, too many people grow up. They forget. They don't remember what it's like to be 12 years old. They patronize, they treat children as inferiors. Well I won't do that.” - Walt Disney

I was having a talk with my fiance the other night and I told him that I envy those who are naive and sheltered. He admires me for what he calls 'having common sense' and knowing the lifestyle of being sheltered and the knowledge of the streets, but I do envy those that don't.

I remember just a few years ago when I wasn't afraid of anything and some might argue that it's better to be smart than stupid. But knowing too much can be just as fatal as not knowing anything. I think knowing too much is stressful because for me, I fear everything now.

Growing up I heard the term 'the world is a scary place' many, many times. But I never got the meaning until recently and I hate it.

I want to be young again... or at least see the world in the eyes of a child once more.